WTH!

When I left the house this morning at 7:00 a.m., Robin was wearing cute pink monkey PJ's and a gray sweatshirt. She made me made a cup of coffee, a shake to go (without cigarettes) and walked me to my car.

Now she's a psycho on the loose. With a gun. And an attitude. And a passion for shooting.

I used to be such a nice girl...

What has become of my life?

In my quest to lose weight and become healthier, Robin, too, has a new hobby...take a guess.

Healthy Living

Since the sting of being a Biggest Loser reject has lessened, so has my enthusiasm for doing it on my own...easier said than done. I've lost roughly five of the 16 pounds that I gained. OK, yeah, but not numbers like you see on the show. Oh well, guess it's called real life.

I've taken some pictures with my new camera that I'm going to post. You will see pictures of Baxter when he's feeling less than svelt, Bodi making good use of my treadmill, and a picture of my health drink that Robin decided should really be an ashtray.

Oh My!

So as part of my recovery from not getting chosen for TBL, I treated myself to a new treadmill. I am not working at home today and they just sent me a picture of my new purchase. It appears to be slightly smaller than my living room.

My old TM is a 1.75 HP and this one is a 3.5 HP, so if my calculations are correct, I will lose weight twice as fast.

16 pounds

16 pounds is the amount of weight I gained from 03/06/09 through 04/11/09.

SIXTEEN POUNDS!!!

That is the approximate weight of a big bag of dog food. Have you ever lifted one of them? It's kinda heavy.

I was so sure about getting on TBL, that I literally almost gave away all my clothes. Thankfully I decided to wait.

Oh well...easy come, easy go, right?

Death of a Dream....

Not really though...

It looks as though I didn't make it on "The Biggest Loser". A former contestant has a message board on which a casting director wrote that all the finalists have been notified. I was not notified.

My dream was not to go on TV im front of millions with my fat exposed. It was to lose a lot of weight. I am now officially announcing to the world, or the four of you who actually read my blog, that I will be losing the weight on my own. My Plan B began today.

I was super disappointed and shed a couple of tears, but it's all OK now. For some reason unknown to me right now, it wasn't meant to be.

Me today

Not gonna lie to you...the eating really hasn't slowed down too much. Here is a picture of me now.

I have always been fat, but haven't really felt fat before. Until now. I have not intentionally tried to gain weight, mind you, I just haven't been watching what I've been eating. I now feel exactly like a sauasage. No other way to describe it. And not a Jimmy Dean sausage, either. A real sausage - stuffed in a casing that's too small and bursting out both ends. The casing feels like it could split at any given moment.

I need to hear back from TBL soon or I shall explode - literally.

On a positive note, I did have a salad for lunch today. First green thing I've had in weeks, other than the new Jalapeno Flavored Doritos. But for breakfast I had a gas station meat patty. Come to think of it, that had a little green-ness to it too.

Me

If anyone is having a hard time envisioning me thin, strain your brain no more.