URGH!

Today is March 31st, the day that "The Biggest Loser" had been using as the cut off date to recieve audition videos. Notice the word "had"? I just looked at the website and the date has been extended to April 3rd.

URGH! I know it's only a few more days, but these past few weeks have been the longest of my life!

If you'd like to see my audition video, go to youtube and search for qisosilgfb4. Keep in mind that they already have lots of video of me with makeup and my hair looking half way decently. I meant for this video to be out there. I think we succeeded!

Greek Green Beans

Despite my efforts to not lose weight lately, I made this amazingly healthy and tasty recipe last night. I totally plan on making it at the ranch. I know Bob and Jillian would approve.

I made it in a crockpot...cook on high for 4 hours...served it with steak and a baked potato.

1 pound fresh green beans, cut in to 1 inch pieces
1 big can of diced tomatoes
1 chopped onion
1 TB olive oil
Oregeno
Lemon juice
Salt & Pepper

This picture is NOT me (yet)....

I found out about and decided to try out for "The Bigest Loser" exactly two weeks ago yesterday. This is the first time in my entire life that I totally did not care about what I ate. I figured I might as well be as heavy as possible if (WHEN) I get on the show. Robin has been loving it too, and mentioned something about it being "the time of my life".

As a long time member of Weight Watchers, I have been conditioned to write down everything that I eat. The following is a list of what I have eaten during the past two weeks:

Egg Beaters with dry rye toast (that was the morning of 03/01/09, before I knew about TBL)
Chinese food - rice, rangoons, S&S chicken
Cheese & Crackers
WW Candy

Left over Chinese
Cuban sandwich
Papa John's - pizza & wings (and when I say "wings", they always include blue cheese)

LO pizza

Tuna sub with cheese
Fettucine alfredo with 3 garlic rolls (Ok 4)
Wings

LO fettucine
Almonds
pizza

Jumbo Buffet - wings, tuna, crab rangoon, and a bunch of other crappola
Pita chips, cheese

Eggs, hashbrowns, OJ, biscuit & gravy (my ultimate favorite breakfast)
Burger King - Angry Whopper, fries (worth it)
Taco Bell - Nachoes Bell Grande, burrito

1 left over mini BK burger (1 less for the dogs, that is)
cheetos
Reeces mini - 3 (Bought a bag for Easter - Robin insisted. Oh yeah, she's Jewish)
1/3 frozen pizza
Robin's lasagna
2 pieces Texas toast

Cheetos
Reece's - 3
1/2 Reuben
fries
Reece's
cheetos
2 BK mini's (what? we got them 2 6 packs - they won't know)

Funions
1/2 tuna melt
fries
salad
Greek - gyro, green beans, potato
Reece's

LO 1/2 Reuben
Fiber One Bar
LO spinach pie
Thai - noodles, beef curry

LO lasagna
Domino's - pizza
1/2 sandwich

Reece's
Wing Hut - wings, fries
cookies
cheetos
combo's
1/2 LO Dominoe's sandwich

3 Dominoe's kickers
Bulldog Bar B Q - white chile, pulled pork, mac and heese
Paula Deen's recipes - bacon, parm cheese on crackers; sausage rolls

sauasage rolls
1/2 empanada
ham & cheese croissant
Taco Bell - taco, mexican pizza
Talapia Florentine ( I made it, thank you)
Stove top stuffing

sausage rolls
chips
peanuts
LO fish and spinach
tator tots

chips, nuts, cookies
Big Slick Deli - 1/2 open ender
Pizza

LO kickers
LO 1/2 sub
chips
Chinese - special rice, crab rangoos, S&S chicken, rib
cookie

LO Chinese food
Cobb Salad
Bread & butter

OJ
2 cookies
peanuts
Denny's - buffalo chicken sanwich, onion rings, fries
Spaghetti with sausage

Eggs with cheese, bacon, 1/2 bagel
Bahama Breeze - seafood chowder, fish tacos
Burker King, chicken sandwich with cheese, fries, onion rings

Publix fried chicken (very good and worth it)
cheetos
cookies
peanuts
pita chips with hummus
mashed potatoes
cranberry chicken
ice cream with strawberries

I AM AN EFFING PIG!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!

Starting today, I am not going to go HOG WILD...I have gained around 10 pounds, give or take, and want to keep it at that until I hear from the show. Then, it's on - or should I say off. Yes, I should say off.

Today, so far I have had a Dr. Oz shake - very healthy. We're also making a healthy quiche and a pork roast for dinner.

The past two weeks have been a blast, but I really can feel the results of horrible eating. So now I am going to hop on my treadmill and do some weights. I have been keeping up with that at least. Even have been doing some running!!!!

Baxter

I think I have my partner for "The Biggest Loser".

Long time no see...

I haven't been here since the camping trip. We had an absolute blast!! When we got home we started making a list of camping things that we wanted to get and I started googling places to camp around here. We became slightly obsessed with the whole camping thing.

And then....

On the morning of Sunday, March 1st, I watched the previous week's "The Biggest Loser" and there it was...rolling across the bottom of the screen - "CASTING CALL IN MIAMI, MARCH 7, 10:00 - 5:00"

I have always wanted to try out for this show, but every time they have had auditions around here, they've been looking for couples. This time they wanted singles. So I sat there for a few mintues and thought -- is this something I really want to do or is this something that kinda sounds good until it becomes a real possibility? I knew I wanted to do it - at least try out. I would never forgive myself if I didn't at least try out. When Robin got up, I told her I needed her undivided attention for a minute. She sat down and before if even got the words out of my mouth, she encouraged me to go for it.

I cannot remember ever being so determined to do something. I am totally obsessed with getting on this show. Anyone who knows me knows that. It's all I can think about. I made it through the interview and did my very best at a silly and hopefully memorable video. I can envision myself in spandex for the world to see my fat, throwing up because I'm running too fast, Jillian screaming at me, sitting on a rock in the dark, talking to the camera. I can see it all. It took a long time, but I can also finally see myself being a small person. (literally, not figurtively)

I am now in the waiting mode and it sucks. Every time the phone rings or someone knocks at the door, I think it's gonna be Bob or Jillian. My head tells me that I will not hear anything until at the earliest March 31st, because they're accepting videos until then. But my heart tells me that maybe I was so perfect for the show that they'll sign me up early. I never let my hopes get so high, but the casting director told me personally how perfect I am for the show. If he said it just in passing, he's evil. Every time a shimmer or doubt tries to seep into my head, I think of his words..."PERFECT FOR THE SHOW".

Nobody has dared to really come out and say, "Kim. What if you don't make it?" I know everyone must think it though. I will be absolutely devastated. At first, the thought of getting on the show was so exciting. And who knows what could happen after the show? But the bottom line is, the most exciting thing is that I can finally lose the 100 pounds that I've always wanted to lose.

So here's my Plan B...if it is not meant for me to be on TBL, I am going to lose the weight on my own. I will be serious about not drinking, working out, and most importantly, eating healthy.

If I don't get on TBL, I will lose 100 pounds on my own. I am determined to do it one way or another.